The week started badly. I got a bit at the end of my tether and very tearful about things.
I sent an email to my brother and he turned up to offer support, both practical and emotional the same day. I could hardly string words together sometimes. I feel like I have messed up and am not quite sure what led to this situation. I want to wave a magic wand and for everything to be OK but I can’t find it.
I don’t get any visitors to the house usually and my brother’s visit made me realise what a big gap this is in my life. OK, I might have to tidy up more but just to have someone to pop in or to meet up with would be good I think.
Anyway, here are my reasons to be cheerful.
1. My brother taking time out like that to lend what support he can.
2. The fact that as I was chatting to my brother, my husband walked in to say the car had passed its MOT. This never happens for us so it just feels like something to hold on to – a belief that things don’t always turn out as badly as you fear.
3. I got quite firm about taking step by step actions on various fronts and my husband really listened. Instead of burying our heads in the sands, we are now taking what control we can and planning for all eventualities.
4. My brother invited us for Boxing Day. That will be a treat and will remind us all of my late Mum’s amazing Boxing Day spreads.
5. Yesterday, we had an interview free day so we went and sorted some presents out. We were very inventive and wrapping things today proved to me that each of my children has a reasonable pile. Not expensive items but things they will like. I have no doubt that I will ensure we do lots of fun activities to make up for less under the tree this year.
6. My zillionnaire brother sent the children a tenner each for Christmas. Shows he is thinking of them a little at this time of year. Last time I spoke to him about our situation, he said at least we could live off the state. In my more wicked moments, I have fantasies about turning up on his doorstep like the less posh relatives in “Keeping up Appearances”. Could quite fancy myself as Rose and I am sure Him Indoors could rock the string vest look.
7. School is over. The plays are done. The parties have gone well. Non-uniform days have been managed. We can now cuddle up as a family of five, enjoy Christmas and tackle the New Year with a positive and proactive outlook.
8. And just when you thought Cinderella’s Fairy Godmother would not really turn up, she went ahead and did.
Just in case, I get caught up in festive frolics and peak early, may I take this opportunity to wish anyone who reads my blog a Magical and Merry Christmas and a peaceful and prosperous New Year.