What are my reasons to be cheerful?

I am in a funny old mood today.

I can spot some of the reasons why.

I saw on Facebook that it is the anniversary of a peer from school’s death at the age of 21. She was a talented actress and would probably have been at the Savoy do on Sunday as a celebrity or an Oscar winner like Rachel Weisz had she lived. We were not friends and I have reason to feel guilt at some of my reactions to her. So I feel self-aware and uncomfortable with the darker side of myself.

I feel also that I am living a life that is not mine anymore – in the wrong house and town, doing the wrong things and going nowhere particularly fast. Socially, saying thanks to the lollipop lady is as good as it gets. I also feel my blogging has suffered this year and I resent that as it has been a safe sanctuary for many years. I want to look at my blog again and what I want it to do. It has to be more useful than my general ramblings on life. In fact, those ramblings would be far better put to work in my novel.

We thought we had found a house and now the landlady is thinking things over so we are in limbo once again. I am getting heartily fed up of life being on hold.

So let’s dig deep for my reasons to be cheerful.

1. I went to the Tesco Mum of the Year Awards and had a lovely time. Apart from a slight wobble a the start, I felt confident enough too. I did not do my hiding in the loo bit once. Get me!

2. I know that when we feel a bit out of sorts with ourselves, it sometimes means we are reflecting a lot and that good things are just around the corner.

3. My daughter snuggles up close every night.

4. My teenage son keeps me well supplied with hugs and is being so helpful whilst his Dad is away.

5. My youngest son continues combine his comic genius with sensitivity when required.

6. We had another huge repair bill on the car and my brother paid for it. He has been so very supportive in recent months.

I feel like I need someone to come and give me a good shake.

Is that cheerful enough?

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  1. Ellen March 27, 2014 / 4:46 pm

    Good times are around the corner, in a few months you’ll be all sorted & will reflect on this time & know it was all worth it!
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  2. Looking for Blue Sky March 27, 2014 / 7:16 pm

    I know how tough it is being in limbo, but for many of us, life is like that a lot of the time, things are always changing, and there is no final destination where you are guaranteed to live happily ever after. But I think you know this already. And isn’t that why we do reasons to be cheerful, to remind us of all the good things to enjoy everyday no matter how chaotic our lives may seem in the round ((hugs))
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  3. Kat Pearce March 27, 2014 / 8:37 pm

    I know when we are in the middle of a difficult time the only thing I have found to be cheerful for some days is a blue sky. Keep smiling lovely, things will get better soon. You are surrounded by a loving family and that counts for everything in my book :o) xx

  4. Michelle Twin Mum March 28, 2014 / 8:20 pm

    No shakes form me but a massive virtual hug, it is hard having hubbie that far away and I only did it for a month or so. I’ll keep you in my prayers. Mich x
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  5. Hannah March 29, 2014 / 6:37 pm

    Good times are around the corner for you for sure lovely lady. You don’t need a shake you need a nice cuddle and to be told things will get better, which they will! You have a lovely family
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  6. Shay Noble March 30, 2014 / 1:32 am

    I’m so sorry to hear you’ve been having such a difficult time lately, well done on finding some positive’s among it all..it can be hard to pluck out the good things when everything feels rather rubbish. Sending love and best wishes that everything falls into place for you x

  7. Ojo Henley March 30, 2014 / 1:03 pm

    Ah lady, you need to get back to your hubby! Get a sense of ‘normality’ to your day (whatever normal is?).

    I am glad you found reasons, especially that those reasons are your children. It is fantastic that they are stepping up to the plate and keeping you going.

    And yes, get you!?!?!? Not hiding in a toilet……….can you teach me that trick? (I’ll meet you in the loos at Brit mums haha)

    p.s. always here, behind your screen, if you need me xxx
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