I think losing weight is all in the mind in terms of you needing to be in the right frame of mind before you can tackle losing much at all. However, it does not end there.
I started my weight loss journey in September this year and was pleased to see a stone and a half coming off in a matter of weeks. Or did it? Because last week, my weighing scales went weird and sometimes said I was 9 stones and sometimes over 16 stones.
The awful thing is that it has preyed on my mind so much. I have hopped on and off the scales placing them in different rooms and weighing myself at different times of the day. Last week it became almost obsessional so I decided to get off the weight loss regime for a few days. I ate and drank what I like for about 5 days.
Now I am back on the healthy eating again. I don’t know what I should do about getting weighed. If I don’t get weighed, it feels strange like I am not trying to lose weight at all. If I do get weighed and can’t trust my scales, it is a fairly pointless exercise. If I buy new scales they might say I am 25 stones. Who knows? The weighing scales have a tryannical power. Why is that? Where does that come from?
I had some great support last week saying maybe measuring myself is a better idea. I wonder if I should weigh myself once a month and monitor the weight loss in some other way on other weeks (photo of body, photo of face, measurements).
What is true is that I am wearing size 16 tops, skirts and dresses. If you had told me this would be the case back in September, I would have being overjoyed. Now, after the debacle with the scales, I question whether the size 16s are particularly huge size 16s.
It is rubbish of course as my trousers are falling off me, the pain in my knee disappeared weeks ago (I had it for years) and people are telling me I look very different.
Yes, I think losing weight is all in the mind and it is so frustrating. The mind plays tricks and will tell you anything that will sabotage your efforts.
So I can tell myself some rotten things like
1. People are lying when they say they can see a difference
2. The clothes that have size 16 labels are really size 24
3. That I have not lost weight at all
Then, you read other stories of mums on blogs and so many think they are huge when they are stones lighter than me. Am I tackling too overwhelming a challenge?
However, then people who are that bit larger than me say I am inspiring them to stick with the idea of losing weight. That really helps me to keep on track. I would love to be one of those women who succeeds and then can help others do so.
This is a honest post and I hope I have not offended anyone. I just reckon these thoughts and feelings are better written out than whirling around in my brain.
I am linking up with Liska and her wonderful blog hop, Mumentum, where mums trying to shift the pounds and stones support each other along the way.