Have you seen the advert on the telly where women bang on about “This is me!”
Well this is me, just a woman.
So what do you see? An overweight lady with tension in the face. Actually it is not tension, it is me trying not to smile so that the double chin does not turn into a quadruple one. Bingo wings to die for. No make-up whatsoever. Not a pretty woman.
Is that who I am? Why would I have any reason to be proud?
I am proud because I am changing.
I am proud because the dress is a size 16 whereas just weeks ago it would have been a 20 or 22.
I am proud that I have dyed my hair red because I like it whatever others think. It makes me smile.
I am proud because I have invested in new clothes. It is a long time since I dressed up at all and this photo shows that I am making mistakes but with a little practice, I will get it right.
I am proud because I went out to “We Will Rock You” and the tension went and I smiled so much, real happiness. I am proud to identify with the individuals and the bohemians in the play.
I may well be a fat and frumpy one but oh yes, I am an individual with the ability to challenge the status quo. There is a rock chick waiting to emerge from this particular chrysalis.
An individual who has overcome ..
Being abandoned as a baby
Bullying in the playground and at work
Relationship breakdown and infidelity
An individual who commits to parenting and step-parenting even though finding both to be very challenging.
A bohemian who lost her way a bit but at least has the guts to try and do something about it.
Here’s to the #groovingmums and all the bloggers who are helping me so much on this journey. I thought of you all last night when they sang “We are the champions” cos you all are even when you don’t realise it. That sounds very corny but is meant totally, heartfelt.
I am just a woman and I am proud.
You should be too.