Months ago, I found a lump. Tiny really, about the size of pea.
Now we know if you get a lump in your breast, you should rush to the GP.
My lump was in my gential area. Perhaps that can be ignored I told myself. However, a voice inside told me loud and clear if a friend told me she had such an issue, I would insist she went to see a doctor. Why do we look after others better than we do ourselves?
I also have an issue with fatigue which I think is part and parcel of getting older and the demands of family life. My husband nags me to go and get some blood tests sorted and I ignore him. I fall asleep all of a sudden and as soon as we get the children sorted on a night, I usually crawl off to bed or am already snoozing in the chair.
Today I finally went to the GP. I thought that I would see what the GP was like. If they were nice, I would mention the lump. If they weren’t, I would just talk about tiredness.
I arrived on time but waited for nearly half a hour. I tried reading a magazine but I could not concentrate. Everyone seemed to be called except me and I could feel myself getting more panicky. Please let it be a woman doctor.
About 15 minutes in with my mind wandering, I suddenly felt how awful my late mum must have felt as she sat in a waiting room having being summoned for her terminal cancer diagnosis. How her heart must have raced. She always said the worst bit was telling her children.
They say you should not die of embarrassment. I suddenly thought that if I got bad news, I would have to leave my children alone through neglect of my own health and a worry about someone looking at my nether regions. How utterly stupid!
Eventually, a woman doctor called me in. Steeled by thoughts of my mum and my kids, I introduced her to my lump. And yes, dear reader, it is just a cyst and nothing to worry about. I still did the right thing in getting it checked out.
Blood tests should identify if the tiredness if anything untoward. The GP and myself expect them to be normal.
I resolve here and now to check every little niggle out in the future.
If you are like I was and ducking a trip to the doctor, make an appointment today. We both know it makes sense.