I can see clearly now on many fronts and this is making me cheerful. I have had a lovely couple of weeks.


1. We had an amazing break in Norfolk boating with Herbert Woods. I will write a review soon. My pictures are on Instagram or some of them as I took so many! I am totally smitten with the place and want to hurry back. The family did the driving and for the first time in years, I laid back and enjoyed the ride with beautiful weather and the sleep I clearly needed so very much.

2. We also had a cheeky hotel night stay which was fun.

3. I am getting stronger and stronger in my feelings about home education. Nine months in the children are not suddenly without intelligence. They direct a lot of their own learning allowing their talents to emerge in a natural way. It has taken me a long time to deschool myself proabably inevitably after staying in education so long myself. I think I could probably sum up this year as my daughter becoming mentally well, my son finding the things he likes best most of which was not offered at all in school and me realising that maybe I am good enough to support their learning journeys after all.

4. Him Indoors arranged a little trip to Cambridge. My college was closed but a little chat with the porter soon solved that issue. Only my youngest seemed to feel about the place in a similar way to me. For me, this place is a sanctuary, home and magical. My husband says it is just a town (I did point out that if he was a Cambridge graduate, he would know it is actually a city!). My daughter pulled a face at the very idea of her ever attending. My other son just whinged keen to get back to his latest game no doubt. Nobody can spoil this place for me. Memories hit me with pleasure. Graduation Day was happening helping me to reflect on all I have achieved in 25 years and how life has changed too.

5. We are looking at a new house tomorrow – I am not sure anything will come of it but for now, I am very excited!

6. I am planning a new blog. I am really clear on what I want to do with it. It is going to be a team effort and lead to great things.

7. We have baked this week with the children learning important baking and life lessons like read the instructions (and sometimes ignore them) it is OK to be flexible with ingredients and it generally all works out in the end. We also realised we need to double up on amounts as Him Indoors is our biggest fan.

8. Tonight, I feel excited like I am on the cusp of many new and wonderful things. I can see clearly now. That is a very good reason to be cheerful.

I am obese. There is little point in running away from this fact. I feel it is time to start phase two of my weight loss journey. BritMums Live was a bit of a milestone for me and it was kind of people to say I was looking “svelte” “gorgeous” and “amazing” but there is a long way to go. I guess the next milestone can usefully be the BritMums Christmas party.

On a positive note, I am now only obese whereas when I started this journey, I was very obese. I look forward to being overweight first and then to hit that dizzy day when I am a healthy weight.

Today I am revisiting my own tips from the first part of my journey.

1. Make a real commitment to your healthy eating.

From November to April, I made such a great commitment. A break way messed up my meal planning and I have relaxed a little too much in the run up to July. It is time to commit again.

2. Find someone who has lost weight to inspire you.

I can inspire myself. I have lost a lot of weight. I can and will finish the journey.

3, Accept that you may well be on a long journey and visualize the amazing destination.

It is a long journey but I am about halfway there. I need to celebrate that and then look forward to seeing that destination in sharp focus.

4. Accept that you are already gorgeous inside and that the outside will soon reflect that too.

Huge thanks to those who gave such generous compliments online and at BritMums Live. You really gave me such a confidence boost. I am not used to perceiving myself as attractive but if I can see the beauty in others, I need to do that for me too.

5. Reach out for support.

Support is vital to me. I need that army of supporters spurring me on. I see the changes in my behaviour when my support system gets quieter. I can be proactive and ask for that support.

6. Don’t stress the blips

I did not reach my target weight for BritMums Live. So what? Today is another day and the future is bright.

7. Choose foods that you enjoy

I am going to do a big Internet shop and fill the basket with healthy foods that I enjoy.

8. Get real about the health risks you are taking

This one speaks for itself and I need to get a new blood check.

9. Get real about the size of the problem.

I still have a lot of stones to shift. I am obese. I must look that way too. I have work left to do.

10. Celebrate every baby step

I got into a dress that I bought about 3 years ago in the hope one day I would wear it to BritMums Live. It was labelled size 14. I am not claiming to be size 14 but I managed to wear that dress on the Saturday. That is a baby step in the right direction and this photo shows that very dress.

Caprice supermodel

I will listen to my Slimpod and keep doing what I am doing. It is working.


I Am Obese And I Know It