I am not sure I want to be responsible so am reflecting on the word responsible as my word of the week.

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There is this niggling voice that has started to rebuke me for being too responsible.

I am not sure I want to be responsible

When I work, I put in too much effort often more than I am rewarded or thanked for.

I do about 90 per cent of the housework with the husband making vague occasional attempts usually loudly and with an air as if he deserves a medal for doing anything.

Similarly on the parenting front, it is me who educates the children, instils values and encourages debate.

Everyone looks to me for the right answers and frankly I am sick of it.

When does it stop?

Can I step off and freewheel through life for a while? How about a day of living in sunshine taking walks and reading for pleasure. Lounging around and taking time to just be. How about 365 days like that? How about a lifetime?

What makes me so responsible? Why do I drive myself so hard spinning so many plates and then wondering why I get tired?

Something tells me 2017 will be the year of radical changes and I intend to be good enough rather than so utterly and boringly responsible.

Responsibility implies obligation but I am a free spirit as soon as I choose to take that path. Will that road take me North or South? Who will I meet along the way?

Will I do something so amazingly exciting that someone will say in awe or judgement “Are you responsible for this?” and will I smile sagely and say “Oh yes and I am proud!”

In fact, I can do that now because instead of moaning on, I am going to take responsibility not for chores and saving the world but for changing my life.

I thought I would check what cheerfulness means partly as inspiration for today’s post as for a variety of reasons I am feeling tired.

Google tells me that cheerfulness is the state of being noticeably happy and optimistic. I am happy enough at the moment but more importantly I am optimistic with a real feeling I am in charge of my own destiny. I think it is a long time and possibly over 10 years since I last felt quite this way.

This year will bring great changes and I have 2 options both of which would improve things for myself and my family.

Happiness this week came from again listening to my mind and body and giving them what they need. This enables me to be more present for my children and to get things done efficiently too.

My oldest son is recovering steadily after his operation and it is nice to have him around more.

My daughter continues her mix of creative brilliance combined with strong opinions on current affairs.

My youngest son and I have had huge joy this week playing with fire!

Apparently cheerfulness also means the quality of causing happiness. I am discovering by allowing myself to be happier, it almost inevitably results in those around me being happier too.

It’s a time for snuggles and lazy hours in between spurts of creativity and brilliance.

More mundane thoughts include being over the moon that I have several bin bags ready for the tip tomorrow and more for the charity shop. I am finally working out that streamlining the house a little makes housework so much easier.

What cheerfulness means varies from individual to individual and from week to week. Will you celebrate that will the Reasons to be Cheerful blog hop?

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