I am becoming more aware of changing my perspective.
Looking back, a lot of my blogging was about challenging issues such as terminal illness, bereavement, redundancy, parenting issues and depression.
I tried to be open and honest for my own therapy and apparently people found that inspiring. I even got nominated for awards for being so miserable!
I have always said that when I wrote my first Grooving Mums post way back when it was more about trying to find out if I was mad or if there was anybody else who felt the way I did. I did not know that I was opening the floodgates and that actually I was not as mad or as different as I thought.
I hated myself for being fat and ugly.
I have taken charge of my weight and the truth that I now see that I have my own individual beauty.
I was isolated and had no close friends.
I now have many friends and in fact find it a challenge to keep up with them all. That is a big change and it is good to not only have online friends but people I get to see in the real world too.
I thought I would never work again.
I got that one wrong too! I just needed to reinvent myself career wise as many mums do as they try to juggle it all.
I thought it was my fault when my partner looked at dating sites.
I now realise that when someone is a twit, it is all about them. Nothing to do with me at all – I am an attractive, intelligent, feisty, witty, creative and caring woman. In fact if I joined a dating site I would probably be inundated with offers. My husband is a lovely man but just like me and probably you, he gets it badly wrong sometimes.
I thought getting into debt as a student and other financial issues would give me a poor credit history for life. I know about such matters so this was ridiculous of me. I looked at my credit file this week and got the great news that I am creditworthy.
I found housework overwhelming so the house was too often a tip.
These days I keep on top of things enough and if the house is a mess it usually means I have made the choice to focus on fundamentally more life-affirming stuff. My late Mum said her only regret in life was that she had done too much cleaning.
I asked for some particular assistance this week and not one person came forward. Years ago, a friend told me that I had a very good heart and I celebrate that. I would always do my utmost to help where I could and that makes me a very special soul.
Am I bigging myself up? Isn’t it about time?!
So yes I am changing my perspective and I think that is one big reason to be cheerful.