I wanted to explain what it feels like when everything changes very quickly.
The first awful news causing emotional shock is that we had to put our beloved cat Max to sleep after he was attacked by a fox. There was nothing the vet could do. We were so upset and still are. Max was a gorgeous and huge ginger tom with the air of an emperor. He is sadly missed.
Then, our landlady announced she is ending our tenancy as she wants to put the house on the market as she is emigrating. We have just under 3 months to find somewhere new.
If I am honest, the loss of the house bothers me not at all. What troubles me is that it will almost inevitably bring an end to the lovely set-up we have now with my 84 year old Dad living in the annex and us in the main house. The chances of finding somewhere to accommodate us all with Dad retaining his independent are minimal to zero.
We have had a charming couple of years here with me feeling so less lonely having Dad around during the days when Him Indoors is at work and the children at school. I have enjoyed out laughs, our conversations, our shopping trips and our meals out. It is good to have such wisdom around on a daily basis and Dad often provides the most wonderful counselling for us all free of charge.
I think Dad has loved it too. Despite the chaos that comes with 3 children and pets, I think he has on the whole enjoyed it all. He adores his grandchildren and they him. I get tearful at the idea of it all coming to an end. Cheeky afternoon teas when nobody is looking, gifts for the kids on an almost daily basis, chats after school, crosswords and so much more.
Dad will probably move in with my brother about 1 hour away from us. I worry I won’t see him much and just feel a little heartbroken by that. My brother is not my greatest fan.
I know change always bring positives too and it will be fun looking for a new place. We are going to try to stay close to where we are now as we love the area and it is great for commuting and there are really good links to London when the need arises. The children are settled at school and this is a lovely place to bring up a family.
Sometimes I feel I am trying to suit so many people and I want to do it but sometimes it is tough to please everyone. I feel the weight of several responsibilities and try to be fair to everyone.
The truth is we don’t have very long to find somewhere so I guess it is a case of seizing the pivotal moment and seeing where it takes us all.
So this is what it feels like when everything changes very quickly.
As ever, wherever life takes us it all makes for blog fodder.
Wish me luck!
Originally posted 2012-07-09 08:59:59.