The phenomenal woman and blogger Sonya has tagged me to answer some questions.
I have been poorly sick over Half Term so decided to take this tag to get my blogging mojo back a little.
What did you want to be when you grew up?
I did used to enjoy dressing up as a nurse and injecting people.
Any ambitions to join the medical profession changed when I started watching Crown Court on the telly. At that point, I liked the idea of dressing up weirdly and mouthing off with everyone instructed to listen to me. A barrister was the life for me or so I thought and I intended to specialise in defending criminal cases overturning injustices.
At university, I obtained my law degree but got cynical that it all seemed to be about making rich people richer and powerful people even more powerful. That and the treatment of women by the legal system made me leave ideas of joining the legal profession behind.
I have made very few grown-up choices and my life shows that really so now I am hoping to become a published writer when I grow up. I would also like to work in a shop and have a fantasy of owning a floristry business.
How many children did you imagine you would have – and how many have you got?
I used to have a clear image of myself with three tall boys and a willowy girl. I ended up with two sons and a daughter called Willow. I keep expecting the other tall guy to turn up at some point to make sense of it all.
A palm reader also told me I would have 3 children.
Who or what inspired you to start blogging?
I think most people know this story. As I went slowly insane and miserable with the demands of parenting and the blight of post-natal depression, my Mum suggested that I should write even if I just kept a diary. She said this at about 4am on Boxing Day fuelled by Bell’s whisky. A few weeks later she told me she was terminally ill so for me blogging is the greatest gift she gave me and is in a way her legacy.
What’s your favourite blog post you’ve written?
It is impossible to pick one. My best in my view are those where I share openly and honesty, showing the warts off to good effect. I also like the ones where I analyse things and show that I do have quite a fierce brain still. I also love trying to remind people that we have so far to go in women getting a fair deal still.
What is your greatest achievement?
Being the first person from my school to ever get into Oxbridge.
Choosing the harder life option of charity work over the Law. I did make a difference to people along the way.
Putting myself back together after a relationship breakdown where I became aware that I too could be fooled and get things very wrong.
Keeping on keeping on through relocations, redundancies, infidelities, depression and isolation.
Reaching out to help others.
Surprising myself sometimes by walking on fire and travelling overseas on my own.
I am despite being fat and it seems quite possibly diabetic hoping the best is yet to come.
What is your biggest regret?
Allowing fear of rejection to hold me back way too much leading to me not taking risks in personal relationships and therefore ending up at 45 fundamentally friendless at least in the real world.
Not looking after myself physically or emotionally.
What makes you laugh?
Lots of things – word play, ancedotes, some comedians and I also have quite a ribald and black comedy all of my own. My children saying funny things and pulling funny faces.
What makes you angry?
How we are not on the streets saying it is wrong that so many women are battered in their own homes, attacked when they have the audacity to go out and generally treated like the proverbial.
In my home, I get angry that some power that be has decided it is my role to do most of the housework however rough I might be feeling and that I am too often silenced leading to me disappearing a little.
Do you ever break the rules and which ones do you break?
I break rules that Him Indoors sets because I think some of them make no sense and also that I should get a choice in things. Things like me having a blanket downstairs or a duvet if I am feeling in need of extra comfort.
I once submitted a funding bid when a boss said not to. Noticeably when the bid succeeded he accepted the money and the credit!
I question authority naturally so there will be more examples I am sure.
What are your top three books?
I don’t read as much as I would like.
The Hobbit has a special place in my heart always.
A book about New Zealand and a lighthouse by Keri Hulme called The Bone People because it was such a one-off and because I half-imagined the main character was myself and because it was a gift from someone special.
There are lots of others and I will go for gold and say the Bible as I find it times of crisis, it usually has something good to say.
It turns out I have done this all wrong and answered the wrong questions so I guess that goes to show that I break the rules often inadvertently.
I will now write a post based on the questions I was really asked.