I am struggling a bit.
Daily life consists now of me trawling job sites and helping my husband with application forms. It gets tedious especially with no job in sight yet.
You can’t take a day off from it because it is sod’s law that will be the day that the right job appears somewhere.
He goes to interview and gets great feedback but that is not a job and that is what this family needs.
The Job Centre are “helping” him by sending him on a very basic computer course that will enhance his job prospects not one bit in my view. He was working on computers when they were huge beasts and has stayed up to date as he is really interested in all things ICT.
So he is on a full-time course this week which just happens to be Half Term when I could do with his input.
All the poppies everywhere just feel like salt in the wound. We are in trouble because the Royal British Legion decided to get rid of my husband, a former service man as it goes, who had served them loyally for 7 years whilst recruiting other staff to do jobs he could do stood on his head.
We are both getting a bit down about it and that can lead to tension between us. I found out a woman at his work turned up to see him especially to say goodbye and that resulted in an argument between us. He has time for things like this whilst I am slaving away.
Every morning I wake up with the thought “What can I do today to help my husband get a job?” Nothing has worked so far and when you hear one job had 450 applications you do wonder if there is any hope at all.
Even when I got the all clear at the breast care clinic last Monday, the thought “Now I will live my life to the full!” was closely followed by “Oh no, it has to go on hold till my husband has a job sorted”
I know there are people with much bigger problems and that we are not alone with this one. There is so much unemployment and I still find it strange that the Legion have added some ex-forces people to that number.
Poppies are everywhere and I even feel robbed of that because I don’t think I will ever wear one again.
I know from past experience that I will find a way through this and of course, blogging it out always helps a little.