It’s not all bad this week

It took some strength to write that blog title today. I am still not in a good place but therapy is booked for Friday and I am trying to get better. I listen to the amazing Emma Kenny when I can as that always helps. I played a happiness hypnotherapy CD yesterday. I forced myself out of the house today even though it felt like a superhuman effort.

So although I still have so much sadness and feel lost a lot of the time, I thought I would blog about how today is different to this time last year.

1. I am back in the UK so I understand what people say. I had good French but communicating in a different language brings its own challenges.
2. I am in the same country as all 3 of my children. I live with 2 of them.
3. I am not shouted at or sworn at.  I don’t have to try desperately not to look at computer or phone screens in case dating sites or pornography pop up reminding me I am fundamentally not up to scratch.
4. I am sleeping on a sofa bed but by choice and not because my husband did not want to sleep with me.
5. I am with my brother who tells me over and over that he loves me and just wants me to be happy.
6. There is hope of a positive future. I need to learn to be patient.
7. I got some important correspondence sent off.
8. I bought a gift and a card for someone who had done me a huge favour. That really cheered me up. I love to give.
9. I am back to healthy eating having slipped and piled on a few pounds.
10. People reached out to me when I vented on Twitter. I also saw a course with the incredible Katy Hill that might be worth investing in.
11. I got back into my email after 2 months without it when I signed out and could not remember the password.
12. I cleaned over the weekend in a good way and sorted out my daughter’s bedroom. We were sharing but I am letting her have it now.
13. Lucky 13 – I ordered 2 new toilet brushes and they arrived today. I even put them together all by myself. Hey, it’s the little things.
14. I have a job.
15. The future may yet be amazing. I shouldn’t jinx it by expecting bad things.

Now that is quite a positive post for me these days. I have a favour to ask. If anyone who has read my posts would like to say what they think holds me back in life and getting happy, please leave a comment or pop me an email to kateonthinice1@gmail.com

I really want to hit the ground running now and ensure that when the restrictions lift I can attack life again with some sort of gusto. Your feedback will help. Be kind or brutal – it will all help!

Thanks for sticking with such a Misery Knickers!